Blaue Blume
'She was fifteen. She didn't like this picture, her mom loved it and put it on the wall in their home for a long time.'
I am interested in observing emotions we have in our lives, how they might transform us.
For my project, 'Blaue Blume', I have taken pictures of 15 year old girls in London. I met them on the street and asked them to show me their serious selves. While I was taking picture, I didn't talk to them. The silence between us produced tension and the girl's faces changed in a few minutes. I wanted to capture both the nervousness and the loneliness of the girl through her facial and body expression while in front of my lens. I wished to create an uncomfortable situation with them.
15 is very much a transitional age, a time when girls are very aware they are becoming women. Their bodies and minds are changing and they are often confused about their identity, about who they might become. Their surroundings start to treat them as little women. They are frustrated but there appears to be no reason for it, they lack self control and are based on conflicts between physical and psychological impulses. They are prey to their own energy, emotions and to a powerful self-consciousness. Often they veer between self-hatred and self-confidence, again, seemingly without reason. They have no fear and yet are afraid of everything. They start to see new world not only their mothers.
I wanted to create an image of a 15 year old girl who is in this period of change and has the possibility to transform to any direction. This is very attractive for me because I remember that phase of my life very clearly.
By taking picture of those girls, I can see their ongoing transformation and also my own emotions in the image.